I love writing.
I just finished one novelette, and started to think about the next one. I got plenty of ideas that I loved all, and wanted to make a story that would have them all. I wanted the novelette to be, as I wrote in my diary, "an artistc version of the 'theory of everything' that has been looked for by physicists' (sounds pretty ambitious, huh?
Well, I wanted to make a story in which a guy gets strange dreams with aliens involed, teaching him about the mysterious nature of the universe we live in. Not aliens telling him: "Things are like this and like this," but having the message: "There is more than you can understand. Things are more complicated than you can ever imagine."
The idea was that his experiences challenge not only science as we know it, but also the patterns of religions and ufology itself. What convinces him is the fact that he is having stange SYNCHRONICITIES all the time.
I got inspiration from Stephen King's "Dark Tower" series. When I create fictional stories, I build them in bits and pieces; get inspirational flashes of individual sentences, and then build a stry around these phrases. One that I "received" was an alien saying to the guy:
"THERE ARE CREATURES OUT THERE THAT ARE FAR BEYOND THE DEFINATION GOD OR GODS HELD BY YOUR SCIENCE AND THEOLOGY."
I was fascinated by this sentence!
A this time I was reading a book as part my studies. The book was about ancient religions and folk beliefs of the Finnish people. It was written by Finnish researcher Uno Harva. One chapter told of a story about a place called "Lintukoto," which means "bird home."
By one defination, it s a place far beyond the Milky Way. The Mlky Way is called "Linnunrata" in Finnish and that means "the track or the way of birds," reflecting an ancient idea that when birds move south in the Autumn, they follow the Milky Way all the way to Bird home," which is thought to be a far-away land.
It is understood to be a place where small. creatures called "Lintukotolaiset" ("bird homers"), gnomes or a kind of fairy folk lives. This is not only a Finnsh story, but reflects an ancient mth found in the folklore of many peoples, for example in Russian and Greek mythology as well.
I was like WOW! This was a perfect thing t be added to my story! A perfect, ancient and artistic idea of the aliens, little beings from a distant realm "far beyomnd the Milky Way." I was really inspired when I found this.
Then, I remembered S.P.A.C.E. and all their connections, and went to the computer to find the page again. I printed parts of the text and started reading. I wanted to read and maybe get some inspiration for my story.
I now think that this might have been the moment that I was taken inside this irrational but still intelligently guided theater. This took place in EASTER of 2003 - the Time of the RABBIT!
Scientific American magazine had just published a special issue regarding quantum physics. "Helsingin Sanomat" the biggest newspaper of Finland) also published a big article about quantum physics and cosmology during this Easter.
I have been interested in quantum physics, cosmology and time travel for years, and got the bok "Universe In A Nutshell" by Stephen Hawking last Christmas as a present (Stephen Hawking, Stephen King, similar names, both writing best seller books about fascinating, almost otherwordly topics.)
A few days before this took place (on April 6, 2003) I got, as a birthday present, aq book by Stephen King called "The Dreamcatcher." This book is about aliens.
What amazed me was the fact that just when had gotten this book, the movie about it came out into theaters! My dad, who gave me the book, had no idea of it.
The same week there was a story in the "Youth Against Drugs" magazine about a woman who makes all kinds of culture-historically valuable handicraft. She makes, for example, witch drms, clothes and -- Dream Catchers!
A book and a movie about aliens, and a ook, a movie and an article about a dream catcher -- a message to "catch some dreams"? Well, I have, indeed, had dreams about aliens, abductions, UFOs and other strange stuff.
I don't know when this all began originally, but a kind of starting shot might have been a dream that I had sometime in the Autumn of 1991.
I was nine years old back then. In this dream I am walking in the countryside. It is sunny, warm and so beautiful. I walk on a sand road.
After a while the weather begins to change. It does not take long until the whole sky gray from clouds. There is a strong wind and pieces of newspaper and trash are flying in the air.
I come to a place where there is a low rock fence on my right side and, behind that, a slope. Down the slope there is a building. I am afraid that a twister or hurricane may be on its way here. I look at the horizon, over the fence. Up there is, indeed, a hurricane, moving fast.
Oh, my God, the hurricane explodes with red light and flames. From inside of it a huge FLYING SAUCER lands on the field, n front the buiding. the UFO was hiding in the hurricane. It is metallic and there maybe black and/or green color on it.
I am in panic. I squat down, behind the fence, to hide from the aliens. While being there, I am in terror and wonder what the aliens might look like, why they are here, and what happens if, or when, they find me. Then I lose recollection. I might have wakened up or the dream may have changed.
The dream took place far before seeing the "X Files" or any UFO-related documentary. Although I was very young back then, and although it has been over ten years, this dream has kept haunting and fascinating me ever since.
About half a year later, in February 1992, my cousin (who was born on December 27, 1983) told me about a UFO program he had seen on TV. It was a Saturday, and we got a great idea: Let's go out the next night and, with a flashlight, send messages t space, to call aliens. As naive as it might sound, I was sure that they would come, and I hoped they were friendly. Well, that evening we indeed went out, sent messages, but because nothing happened ("it's too cloudy, that all"), we went back inside and frgt about it.
[NOTE: Coincidently, in February 1992 Harold Egeln got the inspiraton to start S.P.A.C.E., with the first meeting the next month.]
After a week or so February 1992) I saw my first UFO abduction documentary. T Was directed by Juhan af Grann, a Finnish, world famous UFO buff. I was home alone and when I irst saw the face of a gray alien on the screen, I freaked out totally and went into a panic.
I was so scared! After the show was over, I went to my room, sat on my bed, hoped and, who knows, prayed that my parents would come home. It was evening and I was sure that the aliens would come through the window and abduct me. I have heard of people having a kinda shock through Whitley Strieber's "Communion," but, indeed, had my shock from that documentary.
I somehow blocked this documentary from my memory and it appears as if I had not remembered it during the following two or so years. I remember that in 1993, I guess, telling a story to my cousin about a guy who was kidnapped by aliens and placed into a jail in the UFO which was in space. In this story, the aliens did not look like grays at all, but more like the typical green slime creatures from the class B sci-fi movies of the 1950s.
I am unaware of having any memory of thought about the alien abduction documentary while creating that story and this seems very strange because my story told basically the same thing!
My next page in the story was turned in the Winter and Spring of 1995.
The second abduction documentary series by Juhan af Grann came out. I watched it and was again filled with fear, but also with great fascination.
During this same Spring the "X Files" came out here on Channel Three, and with these two series I was again taken into the Wonderland of UFOs and alien encounters. That Summer I read a book about UFOs, a skeptical one, and became more interested.
During the next two years I got a lot of inspiration from UFOs and science fiction, and told stories about them to m youngest cousin. I have been a real story teller, just like the good ol' bards in the Middle Ages!
At the age of 13, while very much interested in the UFO phenomenon, I read the beginning of the book, "ALICE IN THE WONDERLAND."
When I was 13 or 14, in 1996 or 1997, I had a dream. In it a military airplane crashes into a lake. I am thinking, "It was not a UFO." But still I have a very strange feeling in this dream.
(You can imagine that I was shocked when I later read from the S.P.A.C.E. website this Spring 2003 that these kinds of dreams are ot uncommon with people who have experiences of contacts or abductions.)
That year I also had a dream that included the "Alice in the Wonderland" theme.
When I was 14 (in February 1997) I had a dream that was kind of spooky. A beautiful Far Eastern-looking girl (Chinese or something like that) is walking towards me,
Wellm for a 14-year-old this would seem like a fantasy. But this dream is a nightmare. I am terrified because I know that she is, in reality, not a girl but an alien, only disquised as a girl. She has slanted eyes like Asian girls do, but I kno that the creature has slanted eyes also in her/his/its real form. I tell her to stop. I cry n terror and am in panic! She says something, smling, and keeps coming closer and closer. Then I wake up.
When I came to high school, I lost interest in the UFO topic for about two years.
However, the Winter of 2001 marked a new development of the UFO knowledge in my life. It was a mid-day, in February 2001, in the school when I was in the computer class.
I typed - for a reason I don't have an idea of anymore - the words "alien abduction" into a search engine and zap! I was taken int a worm hole of strange lights in the sky, silent kidnappers and massive cover-ups.
I do not have the slightest idea of what made me start this exploration, what made me type those two magic words. But I still somehow did so.
In the Winter of 2001 I had a dream in which I am in the summer cottage area of my cousins. I find that I am led to a round (?) hole in the beach rock, near the sea.
Inside the hole, in a small room, I am naked or half-naked (I am not sure), and there is a table. I go and lie on that table, like in a hospital or doctor's office. I don't know or nderstand why this takes place.Then I (after dressing?) come out of the hole, back to the beach.
This dream reminded me of another dream that I had somewhere around 1994 or 1995. In this dream I am also in the summer cottage area of my cousins, and I go through a hole in the ground, into a big museum type place. There is a statue of the Medusa (from Greek mythology) in the "museum."
In February or March 2001 I ad some dream, where on the edge of waking, when I was half asleep, half awake. I see a flash of something that I "know" is a scene from an abduction. I have a feeling that there is this memory, deep, deep underneath my consciousness, and that at this moment I almost catch it, almost able to remember.
Another dream that I had during that Winter and Spring of 2001 was a dream in which I am in the previous home of my cousins. It is evening and we are standing in front of the living room window.
A bright light is shining just outside the window. We take a closer look and it is a kind of small, shining airship. When I am looking at it, I have a strange tremble or shivering in my body as well as a strange feeling of tiredness.
In this dream I somehow know that this feeling is some kind of physical after-effect, a kind of post-traumatic symptom of an abduction experience that has taken place previously that I have forgotten.
The sighting of the aicraft seems to trigger the memory so that I feel this bizzare thing. I still cannot remember the actual event and have the same type of memory block that was in the dream mentioned previously.
After a short time the ship flies away. I and my cousin go out of the apartment building. We come to the parking lot where we had been in 1992, trying to send messages t call the aliens.
My God, I only understood this connection right now, while writing this down! An alien spaceship, the size of a car, with bright yellow light, is landing in front of us. Then something happens and my recollection of the dream ends here.
On the Vappu Day 2001 (i.e. May 1), I had a very strange dream with strong after-effects. In this dream I am in a swimming hall. I meet a female (who is like a goddess, elf or other supernatural being than just a normal girl).
We swim and dive. Then we come out of the swimming pool, still swimming, this time in the air (as if everything was under water). We come to an escalator and start flying up it. I keep my hand in her hand and I feel such deep love and happiness that I can say that never had felt such since then. This feeling also has some strange yearning in it.
As we come to the top of the elevator staircase we land on our feet. I wake up. That whole day I was filled with a wonderous light and happiness. I felt energetic and joyful. This was one f the strangest experiences and dreams that I have ever had in my life. (Later I learned that at least one other abductee had a similar experience of flying with a female creature, filled with happiness.)
In July 2001 (I am not sure anymore of the exact date) I had a dream in whch I am talking to an alien which looks like a human being. He tells me that they use fusion reactors in their spaceships, which enables them to make interstellar travels.
Around this time I lost interest in the UFO topic for almost two years.
On February 6, 2003 I had a long, vivid and strange dream. In this dream I am on a street corner in Helsinki, on Annankatu ("Street of St. Anne"). Somebody tells me about a red light in the sky. I look up and there, between clouds (the sky is full of blue clouds), shines a red beam of light. I think that t must be a wreck caused by a new space shuttle or airplane disaster.
All of a sudden the sky flashes in white light (the light comes above the clouds and shines between the clouds). Fur or five shining objects appear. They fly down and keep hovering just above street level. There are car-sized and little car-looking, black flying ships with a huge "eye," a big lens (like they use in cameras) on their fronts.
They fly and stop in front of people, observing them. People panic. One ship comes to me. I try to stand erect, without moving (because this is what "they" want me to do) but somehow I can't do that, and I escape behind a guy with a red shirt.
I say: "The Big Brother watches!" After some time the ships fly away. Nobody knows what they are, and generally people consider them to be sent by an alien race from outer space. Somehow I know that they will appear next day in Tapiola, a section of my hometown.
So, the next day I'm there, with some woman (who must be my mom). It is a sunny, beautiful day. There is no traffic at all although this place is usually very busy. We have heard that many of those who met the ships were killed, possibly because of the green gas they produced.
So, we are wearing gas masks, although we are not sure they are enough to protect us. Then the sky flashes in bright white light and two shing objects appear. They fly down. Now I see everything from outside, like I was not in my body anymore or if I was not there.
Now the ships are not black but white. They are still car-sized, and they hover above the street. The camera-type lenses are not there anymore, and instead of them, there are just black windows in the front.
Two guys dressed completely in white high-tech space suits or overalls, without any skin, face or anything being able to be seen, come out of the spaceships. They come to us. We do not move. The aliens touch us with some metallic devices. I, as seen by me outside of my body, scream in terror.
Then the aliens lead us to their ships. Now I lose consciousness. The next thing I remember is waking up in a car with my mom. The car does not move. We are by a sand road, with a beautiful slope and forest to our left side. I have no idea of how I got there. I ask my mom. She also has no recollection. I have a tired and weird feeling and I am scared. We drive home.
At the end of the dream my mom denies everything. I ask her, how the heck did we wake up in the middle of nowhere without any memory of last night's events. I am much stressed, anxious and start crying.
At the end of the dream I am on another planet, on a mountain with a palace. There is also a telescope up there.
THESE DREAMS WERE IMPORTANT
All these dreams that I have remembered were somehow important, because I still can remember them, after many years. I started to write a dream diary only a year ago and only the last one is rom this period.
Before we step into the Wonderland, let me give some additional facts about me that may or may not have significance.
Firstly, one of my grandpas (the one who is alive) jokes and uses nicknames often to call me (when I visit their place to read science magazines, for example), Some that he has used for years are "Anders the Wondere" and "Anders in the Wonderland."
Secondly, when I was 10 years old I used to read for my cousins (who could not yet read) a children's book called "Alvar the SPACE HARE." It told about a hare who travelled throgh the Milky Way and at the end me a poet-philosopher on a sea beach.
The book is very beautiful and artistic, unlike most cildren's books and has always given feeling of yearnng for me. It seems to include many of the major elements in the "WOW! Contact" - but who knows?
Thirdly, I have gooten a RABBIT myself. I got him as a present on my seventh birthday. His name was Tupsu. He died a couple of years ago, in 1996 I think.
Fourthly, the S.P.A.C.E. Contact started in the New York area. I have had a kind of "connection" to New York all my life. I have loved the city and have had a strong yearning for NYC.
In February 1996 my dream came true, and I visited the city. It's been seven years but I still miss NYC. And lately (yet before reading again about S.P.A.C.E.) I was thinking: "I've got to get to New York City!" My girlfriend, by the way, has also visited New York once and there are photographs of NYC hanging on the walls of her room.
I have also previously, outside of the UFO field, had synchronicities and things I call "connections" in my life. They may have been just coincidences and nothing more, but still they have been fascinating.
For example, when I was applying for membership in a Freemasonic organization last Autumn, I had the number 33 Ithe highest degree in the Scottish Rites of Freemasonry) appearing and repetitively re-appearing in all kinds of situations: clocks, when I checked the time, were often 11:33, 3:33, or x.33; I got a lottery ticket with number 33 on it, etc.
That was the time I met my girlfriend. Her phone number includes number 33, and at least one of her text messages that she sentthen came at 2:33 p.m. That number keeps coming to me, again and again, and I knew that it was kind of synchronicity. After I was initiated into the Masonic organization on my birthday last April, that number has stopped appearing that often.
I also found that there were many Freemasons in my family line over the centuries. For example, the ancestor who brought my family to Fnland in the 18th Century was one of the first Freemasons in my country. One relative was also a leader of the whole organization in our country in he beginning of the 20th Century. My maternal grandmother has also been a Mason. So, there have been strange connections that I have had to Freemasonry, without having awareness of them before applying for membership.
I have also been very intersted in the work of the United Nations, and I am a member of the UN Society that works at our university. Ny recenly have I found out that my granduncle was working in the UN in Canada, and when he died, I got his UN badge.
I have also felt a connection to Germany for year (even though I have never been there), and during last year have learned that my family line, both from the paternal and maternal sides, came from Germany. We do not speak German, but Finnish in my family.
These are just a few of the connections that I have had in my life, giving me an impression that there is an invisible "network" of connections that leads and guides me in my life.