3/17/01

Dear Diary,

OH MY.....It cannae be much past 1:00 in the morning and I was awakened from a sound sleep..I cannae hardly believe it my friend...As I write this to you, the ONLY one I may share this with who would believe me...ALAS I was sleeping and dreaming quite soundly this night as I was very tired...The dreams came one after another....Silly dreams, dreams of action, of nonsense....Suddenly they changed....I saw the book that I was given, it is in my trunk where you keep it company, IT was glowing in my dream, drawing me until I came awake with a start....YOU know the BIG BOOK OF SECRETS with nothing written upon it's pages...That had baffled me and I had asked my Aunt Tizzy...I distinctly remember her telling me that when it was time SOMETHING would appear....Just to be patient......
I am not sure if being patient is my strong suit but being stubborn is ...SO I laid it aside for a time, most of winter as it were until I had almost forgotten about it....Well, back to it then....I woke with a clash sitting upright in the bed with no light to speak of but a glowing...HOW could that be...PERHAPS the fireplace? BUT it should be long gone out as I dinnae think to have the maid store it up before retiring....STRANGE as I tried to focus my eyes, I was awake but yet I felt as if I were dreaming still...YES....YES it was the BOOK glowing and SOMEHOW it was out of the trunk and on my dressing table...It was so BRIGHT, glowing with a white light so bright it hurt my eyes.....AS I climbed out of bed and headed toward it tentatively the glow changed to a warm glow like fire....I sat in front of it and held my breath...NOW I don't mind admitting to ya dear friend that I was very frightened but a part of me was curious , that well could be my middle name.....

As I sat in front of it.....THE BOOK opened of it's own accord.....There before my very eyes, letters appeared, faint at first then clearer as the page filled....I began to read....As I read the words, I at first cannae make any sense of it....There was a sound of chimes ringing until the page was completely filled....The words told of a place I was to go and VERY SOON I must do this! It is of an immediate and serious nature....It is a cave not far from the Castle close to the water....It showed a map of sorts that gave me a vague idea of a direction to head....Now the words were being spoken by a voice, it said it was time...for me....TIME for me to begin my first adventure which would help me to DISCOVER what I am about....IT is YOUR DESTINY, the voice said..I will learn OF my deeper self..I gulped and looked in the mirror...I saw this face that I am now looking at as I write this to you...My hair is all over, with several strands excaping my braid...My eyes are wide and dark filled with excitement and a touch of fear....I am frightened but yet I cannae resist this....OH DIARY, I FACE MY DESTINY...OH MY STARS....

After the voice faded away the glow left and I sat for a bit in the dark thinking perhaps it was all a dream....BUT no it still was in front of me but dark, no longer was it glowing.......I lit the rushes on the wall and a candle on my dresser I examined the book closer It had the map but it and the words were fading rapidly as if they never had been there...I retrieved you from the trunk after returning the book....My hands are shaking, my hands feel like ice...Funny, as I was dreaming I could hear growls around me and cries....When I awakened I found both Snow and Icee asleep but their fur was standing on end...The room was dreadfully cold, with frost on my lashes, frost around both kitties so strange.....Their eyes rolling rapidly underneath their eyelids...

I do not know why I must go but the VOICE was very firm...It told me I would know more SOON...I cannae believe this even as I tell you..The voice called me "JENNA"..VERY STRANGE......I will dress as I often do when I work in the stables in disguise....BUT I will sneak away somehow with Maximus....OH MY...OH MY...Why ME....WHO am I really????...AM I UP TO THIS???

I bid thee goodnight....I have put the book safely back in the trunk where I will return you...Pray for me Diary for I do not know if I am up to this task ............Mother and Father should be home in just a few days so I must try to go before then..........~yours, MIra~

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