This is my attempt to put it all together in my mind before I "move on." No need for it all to be in chronological order; it just needs to make sense to me, and if you want to look too, that's O.K. with me. (Eve Adam, a.k.a. Harmonic Eve)

Blue Moon and Standing Alone Today is December 23, 2004. My second husband has left for "parts unknown" because the diabetes he battled for so long finally won. Did it beat him down, or did it free him? I don't know which way to think of it. He left on a Blue Moon Day. I have heard that description of the moon before. I have heard the part of a song that tells the blue moon, "You left me standing alone." I never dreamed how true that would be in my own life. I looked up the scientific meaning of "blue moon." Yes, there really is such a thing and it's not just a poetic expression. This is the first Christmas I have been totally without the man who has, more than any other man, touched my heart for the last thirty-four years. Love changes form but it never dies ... not really. ~~~~~~~~~~~~ Correction, December 24, 2004: Last July I looked up the scientific meaning of "blue moon," but this evening I looked in Google again. I found out the song was a Rodgers and Hart song. I remembered I have a book of their songs so I quickly went to it and looked up the lyrics. Yesterday I had the meaning of the song wrong. In the song lyrics, the blue moon does not take away a love; instead it sees the singer standing alone, then remedies the situation by bringing a new love. Instead of "You LEFT me standing alone," the song says "You SAW me standing alone." I have yet to come to any conclusions regarding my error and any relationship it has to my own life. Eve Adam, a.k.a. Harmonic Eve, December 2004

This was the day I became Eve Adam.

The photo above was taken after the ceremony on the day that I became Eve Adam. I was then already the mother of two teen-age children, and my groom had never been married before. For years he had been asked by acquaintances, "Where's Eve?" He finally found me, although he believed he had seen me passing by in a Chicago train station many years before. Yes, I do remember seeing several sailors in the train station when I stopped in Chicago on my way to California. Then I was only seventeen and had never dated anyone. When I saw the sailors, it crossed my mind that my husband would be waiting for me in California. My Mr. Adam did find me in California, but I had something on my soul's schedule that had to be done first. There was another, already waiting for me in California so that together we could bring two souls into their beautiful earth selves. I do believe our lives unfold as they were meant to, and the lessons are learned even when we don't understand the reasons. The photo above shows Mr. Adam checking out our marriage certificate as I watch. (Harmonic Eve, December 2004, remembering earlier times.)

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Eve Adam, a.k.a. Harmonic Eve

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