[Chorus:] I - I pray For the day When i - When i Can say "Never again" Never again The last last time Yes, the last last last time I'll be the stronger man Waiting I know it well I wait once again To grow To move on To be gone Of the wicked past Of history That repeats (repeats, repeats, repeats...) I wait & pray [Chorus] And i'll learn from mistakes I'll know when to quit Practice virtue of patience I'll learn to perfect it I'll endure temporary pain So as not to hurt again I'll recover, I'll heal Be true to my will I shall overcome - myself [Chorus]

Commentary Wow - when i started looking through some of my old lyric sheets, i just barely remembered this one. The specific event that inspired its writing is now forgotten though i suspect as was the case at the time it was written about several different things at once. Looking back at this piece a decade later is a little unnerving - it explores a theme of knowing that as humans we make the same mistakes over and over again especially in matters of the heart. Do we shut ourselves off inside and lose some of our humanity or do we remain "stupid" and keep opening ourselves to be shot down again and ask :when the frell will i ever learn?" Looking at the date of this piece it was written just prior to meeting someone that i fell very deeply for - the second man in my life that seemed like "The One" and he turned out to be a con man. It was after that experience that i really did say "Never again" and swore off dating and relationships for a while - and that "while" has lasted to this day; even if i had something to offer someone else and discovered the feeling was mutual (science fiction obviously), for the life of me, i'm not sure i can even remember *how* to open my heart up and let myself go and give myself to another person. To look back at this piece when the seed was being planted is a bit overwhelming. Which is why i probably chose this as the first piece i put on my site ... i want to start confronting all those parts of myself i've been afraid to face for a long time.

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