Spirits are high, spirits they fly There's every reason for celebration - tonight So people wonder why - is it that i Feel no need for celebration - tonight Celebration in the air Celebration everywhere But no balloons floating in my head Free flowing compliments Well done accomplishments But i'm being quiet instead Don't be offended by my hesitation If i bypass your invitation To join in the celebration I'm not an existentialist But rather a perfectionist So don't take it wrong if i don't sing along But instead sing a non-celebration song "It could have been, i could have been, everything could have been" [repeat 3 times] OH -- I - COULD - BE - SO - MUCH - MORE... You may sing your praises in all your phrases But i'll skip the celebration tonight Without any rest, you repeat that was the best But i won't be a guest at the celebration tonight

Commentary I tend to be a huge perfectionist especially when it comes to artistic endeavors. Usually after a theatre or music production has ended, the cast usually is in a huge celebration/party mode, but i usually don't feel that self-congradulatory after a show has ended...even when i know i've done a great job, there's always that part of me that nags at myself that says i could have been better. When i receive compliments, i always question if it's really sincere or someone being polite or trying to say something for the purpose of any kind of small talk. This song was written about that feeling. Every performer has their better and their "off" nights. Even when i know i did awesome, i still have a hard time basking in it...i tend to still be going over in my head ways it could have been better...then on nights when i know it was an "off night", i can really be downright miserable and inconsolable. It really takes a lot for me to feel validated after a show; i can have tons of people coming up to me complimenting me and most of the times the words just seem to roll right off me and i don't take it in. Actually, i suppose a lot of times that applies in general in regards to compliments, not necessairily those given in regards to a performance...i usually get so mentally caught up iin questioning if someone's being sincere, polite, or other (drunk, stoned, trying to butter me up with flattery for whatever reason etc) that many times what was actually said doesn't even sink in. Not quite sure if this is all things considered a good or bad thing.

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