[Chorus:] Someone to tell me something Someone to tell me i'm somebody Cause i already have everyone telling me i'm nothing How i long to have somebody somewhere say i'm everything [Chorus repeats] I don't need you to tell me i'm worthless I can do that quite fine by myself I wasn't born to be your personal scapegoat I was created to wear my own self hatred In my constant search for positive energy You are my nuclear power plant 12 step programs claim i have to love myself But how can i when everyone else can't I don't need counseling I don't need an ice cream sundae All i need is [Chorus repeats] I don't need my teddy bear to tell me i'm "Squeezing too hard, i need to hibernate" I don't need my tv set to broadcast "Volume down, you turn me off" I already know i'm nothing but some lousy faggot So i have no need for these KKK wanna be kids I don't need you to compare me to Nonexistant Perfect Man Because believe me, i already did I don't need a new hat I don't need you to tell me this song is flat I dont need you to remind me everything i've done is a huge mistake thats caused the decline of Western Civilization as we know it [Chorus repeats]

Commentary I will be the first to admit (and anyone who knows me can testify) i'm not only my own worst critic but i can often come down on myself so hard to the level where it borders on total self destruction. Part of this may come from my upbringing...i was often surrounded by an incredible amount of negative energy...there's been a fair amount of people in my family who often would put me down at every opportunity (whether it be "innocent" "sibling rivalry", the inability to do/know better, or in the case of some people who have married into the family, just out of pure evilness). Obviously being gay in a largely homophobic society doesn't do much for the ego either especially when some of the harshest prejedice can come from within the community itself where we should be able to seek comfort from the outside world and find support...a great concept if one has a 20" waist i suppose but otherwise, it ain't gonna happen! Being a perfectionist by nature, i sometimes wonder if i would be as abusive to myself mentally regardless of life experience or if this is indeed a "learned behavior". I also have a very VERY self effacing sense of humor but whether i'm being funny or serious i think it all stems down to the idea that given a choice between hurting myself or being hurt by someone else, i would always much rather do the hurting. (Likewise hurting myself vs hurting someone else...i would easily choose hurting myself every time.) This song obviously is about that whole battle between self inflicted abuse/pain and that which comes from the outside world. The line about Nonexistant Perfect Man has an allusion to an earlier song of mine ("Perfect Man") and i think this was something i was started to do a bit at the time...self referencing my other material.

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