The question isn't what did you ever see in me? But rather did you ever see me at all? Why would i have ever thought someone like you Would make me feel anything but small? Anytime you thought of me You were thinking how i thought of you I shouldn't have feared getting under your skin When i was never higher than under your shoe If i wanted to hurt you I'd treat you the way you treat me If i wanted to desert you I'd return all the love you've given me If i wanted to show you disappointment I'd give you a mirror for your birthday As i know you'd look at it so much more Than you've ever looked at me anyway I can't really figure why you'd stoop so low I'd think you'd be looking to acquire a trophey To show off on your arm as you entered a room When i'm not quite the showy accessory I guess you thought i'd make you look great in comparison As that's the only reason for such insanity So i hope you don't mind this present's your parting gift As i leave you alone with your vanity

Commentary Woo hoo! Here it is...the first completed song of 2004 and i'm really quite proud of this one...some things i write and know they will end up being right up there with my favorites and i remember feeling in the same kind of "songwriting zone" that i remember being in when i wrote others of my personal favorites like "Hunting Trophey", "The Sandwich", or "Mutual Attraction" (not yet posted). The sad part is i've been in a huge pit of extreme depression when all of these songs have been written but it's always nice when something of substance and creativity can come out of those times as it turns the negative into a positive. Even better, i also seem to be at a creative peak as far as songwriting goes that i haven't been in for quite some time as i have some strong ideas in mind for two other songs which i plan to develop soon after some things in my schedule settle down a bit. (I won't overanalyze too much the fact that all of these songs essentially deal with feelings of inadequacy!!) So there should soon be more NEW STUFF FOR 2004 online! I do have to thank some of the people who have sent complentary words about the site and my writings since knowing i actually have a bit of an appreciate audience and that i'm not completely writing in a vaccuum gives me an added push of encouragement to write new stuff and see them through. So thanks for the kind words! Hope you like the new stuff! In this song, i tend to return to my familiar themes of knowing that i would never be able to find someone who would want to be with someone like me but i took it a step farther than usual by questioning why on earth would someone ever want to try to start such an attempt in the first place...i hit upon the idea that the only reason someone would ever want to be in a relationship with me would only be to make themselves look good. I did actually have someone i recently met in mind when i wrote this though in all fairness it would be wrong to say this song was "about" him...rather i had a catalyst for an idea and feeling and then explored some more hypothetical possibilities out of that and then came up with the end result of making this a song about as much (if not more) of the other person's faults and character flaws as my own (kind of making it an interesting kind of flip side to songs like "Sorry" or "Posthumous Anniversary") Hopefully Eurythmics fans will appreciate the lyrical homage to their 1983 classic "I Could Give You (A Mirror)"! Once i came up with the idea of using that line in the second verse (which was the first one i wrote)...i knew it was a strong image and wanted to put a twist on it to make it stand apart from the song i was paying tribute to and that's when i really came up with the idea that this would end up being a song about a conceited person/user and that both the title of the song and the last word in it would be "vanity" with the double entendre of the mental state and the mirror itself. Hopefully some more new stuff will be following shortly!!

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