MY LIFE WITH MS AND JUST LIFE

MS AND JUST LIFE WHEN I WAS YOUNG AFTER BOTH MY CHILDREN WERE BORN, I NOTICED SOMETHING WAS WRONG WITH ME. AND TO BE HONEST, I THOUGHT I WAS LOSING IT, TO FIND OUT LATER ON IN LIFE I HAD MS THE WHOLE TIME. MANY OF US WONDER WHY, BUT I JUST SAY, HEY,.... IM STILL ALIVE.

HOW IT STARTED WELL AFTER MY SECOND CHILD WAS BORN, I NOTICED THAT WHEN I LOOKED UNDER THINGS, LIKE TABLES, BEDS, JUST ABOUT ANYTHING, I WOULD GET DIZZY AND LOSE MY BALANCE, ALWAYS FALLING....THINKING NOTHING OF IT. I JUST THOUGHT I WAS CLUMBSY. THEN MY LEG (LEFT ONE) WOULD GET NUMB. I WENT TO THE EMERGENCY ROOM BACK THEN IN 86 AND THEY SAID TO ME "HOW CAN YOU WALK IF YOU DONT FEEL?....I REPLIED," ITS LIKE HAVING NOVICANE, REALLY NUMB, AND LIKE SLEEPY, NO FEELING, BUT I CAN MOVE IT." WELL, THEY SAID NOTHING WAS WRONG. THROUGHOUT THE YEARS IT HAPPENED OFTEN, TO BE TOLD TO ME, THAT IT WAS MY BACK, POOR CIRCULATION, YOU NAME IT! THEN IN MARCH OF 1994, THE WORSE HAPPENED, I COULD NOT FEEL AGAIN, ONLY THIS TIME IT WOULD NOT GO AWAY.IT WAS MY WHOLE LOWER BODY, AND IT GOT WORSE AS THE DAYS WENT ON, SO I WENT TO A LOCAL HOSPITAL. AND SAME RESPONSE, NOTHING WRONG. I WASN'T GOING TO LET THIS GO BECAUSE WHEN I WENT TO THE BATHROOM, I COULDNT FEEL ANYTHING, I MEAN NOTHING, NO FEELING FROM MY WAIST ALL THE WAY DOWN, SO THEN I WENT TO ANOTHER HOSPITAL TO SEE ONE OF MY DOCTOR'S WHO WAS TREATING ME FOR ASTHMA. HE TOOK SOME TESTS AND HE THEN TOLD ME TO SEE ANOTHER DOCTOR, COULD BE MS. I WAS THEN ADMITTED IN THE HOSPITAL TO BE POKED AND TESTED SOME MORE, AND LOW AND BEHOLD HE WAS RIGHT, AND SO MY LIFE BEGINS WITH MS

I FIGURE THERE IS ALWAYS A REASON FOR EVERYTHING....DESTINY.... AND IF THIS IS WHAT DESTINY HOLDS, THEN THERE IS A REASON FOR EVERYTHING.......

MY CHILDREN WERE BORN IN 1985 AND 1986 ONE BORN WITH CLEFT LIP AND PALATE. BOTH BEAUTIFUL BOYS AND MY WHOLE LIFE I OWE TO THEM AND DEVOTE MYSELF TO THEM. FOR IF IT WASNT FOR THEM DEPRESSION WOULD OF TAKEN OVER THEIR PLACE AFTER I WAS DIAGNOSED IN 1994. I AM A SINGLE PARENT WITH TWO TEENAGERS NOW AND I AM 38 YEARS OLD AND HAVE HAD MS FOR WAY OVER 8 PLUS YEARS BECAUSE THE SYPTOMS OF COURSE CAME WAY BEFORE. IM SURE THERE ARE MANY OUT THERE THAT SHARE THE SAME THINGS I DO ALSO.

ALTHOUGH I SOMETIMES I FEEL ALONE IN THIS WORLD AND I KNOW THERE ARE OTHERS, I STILL PONDER AT THE DREAMS THAT I ONCE HAD, AND STILL HAVE. AND HOPE AS THE DAYS GO BY I CAN ACCOMPLISH ALL THAT I CAN DO FOR MY FAMILY AS LONG AS I CAN ON THIS EARTH.

THOUGH THIS I THE SYMBOL I HAVE GOTTEN USED TO NOW, I GET PEOPLE TELLING ME ....NO....NOT YOU!!!!! HOW????

I WISH I KNEW HOW...... AND WHY......

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