"Baby"

September 5, 1991 - September 19, 2004

Beloved Best Friend, Ever-Faithful Ever-Happy & Bright, Constant Companion, Lover Of People, Cars, Nature and All God's Creatures, Source Of Ever-New Joyful Delight, Ever-Alive Sense Of Wonder and Unconditional All-Abiding Exuberant Undying Love! A Precious Gift From God to Ronnie Kahn and the world at large Please call me @ 561-746-7245 anytime. I desperately need spiritual support and comfort, grief-counselling, or just to talk to someone kind and compassionate. I feel broken terribly alone and bereft...Heaven Help Me!

Baby & Nik-Nak

Blues For Baby My little doggie died, And now I just can't keep from cryin... Since my little doggie died, Lord! I just can't keep from cryin... My dearest pal is gone now, And it feels like the whole doggone world is nearly dyin... [bluesy piano, harmonica, & Baby's pre-taped woofling & gurrrgling...] Everyone always called her "Baby" And she never ever grew too old. Even so-called strangers called her "Baby" Called her a puppy, and she never grew too old. Her smile made the whole world happy, Lord! She'd shine as bright as the finest sunshiny gold! As bright as the music of Mozart, And as cute as a looney-cartoon... She was as sweet as the music of Mozart, Cute as a true-life looney-cartoon... Now i'm cryin' my broken-heart out: The brightest star on my horizon Departed this mortal scenario far too soon,,, [bluesy piano, harmonica, & Baby's pre-taped woofling & gurrrgling...] Whenever we were together, She made the whole world all fun and new! We were almost always together, And she always made everything all fun and so new! Without her here beside me, Lord! I just don't know what in this very empty world I'm ever gonna do... [bluesy piano, harmonica, & Baby's pre-taped woofling & gurrrgling...] She loved to woof and gurrrgle! She loved to run and jump and play! Lord! How she loved to woofle and gurrgle! How she loved to run and jump and romp around (sniff every inch of the ground) and play play play! play! play! Just to see and be here with her Was always the happiest part of every wooflin-gurrrglin' poochie-doggie day! [bluesy piano, harmonica, & Baby's pre-taped woofling & gurrrgling...] Now I cry all day and I cry all thru the night... Lord! I cry all thru the day and throughout my lonely doggie-less night... Till the ocean of my tears has left me blindly drifting out-of-sight... I don't know how I could ever be happy again... Lord! I just don't know how I could ever possibly be happy again... Life isn't life without my wooflin-gurrrgler, My little hoochie-poochie friend... [bluesy piano, harmonica, & Baby's pre-taped woofling & gurrrgling...] The brightest light of love I've ever known Is gone now, Lord! I can't believe she's gone... The brightest light of love and joy I have ever known Is gone now, Lord! I can't believe she's really gone... Without my little buddy I just don't know how I'll ever carry on... I love my little doggie I love her still with all my weepin'-willow heart... I love my little poochie-doggie I love her now with all of my woof-woof mee-owling heart... I know we will be together in Heaven Lord! We shall never ever have to be apart! [bluesy piano, harmonica, & Baby's pre-taped woofling & gurrrgling...] --------------------------------------- 12-Bar Blues in C with F-harp & Baby's wooflin-gurrglin sound-track... words&music (c) ronniekahn 2004 (10/6-17) **********************************

Date:    Mon, Sep 20, 2004, 12:46pm (EDT-3) From:    Paul Fiorino Subject:    Re: "Baby" (September 5. 1991 - September 19, 2004) To:    Turtledove Pond We remember dear Baby playing so cute with Gian-Carlo and how she was so sweet, our sympathy is with you in this time of loss. Baby in her loyalty to her master was the most affectionate and loving little dog..ever. Taken so quickly, I know you must be beside yourself with an emptiness that can only be filled with the grace of God. I remember talking with her over the phone in her little gurggle and how you were so proud of her and the beauty she was....and still is in your heart and mind. God Bless her and I hope she found my schnauzer Flower as a companion in doggie heaven. May you find comfort among your many other animal friends and keep the music flowing. We love you and God Bless you. Paul, Rebecca, Allegra & Gian-Carlo

From:    toleos@comcast.net To:    turtledovepond@webtv.net (Turtledove Pond) Subject:    Re: "Baby" (September 5. 1991 - September 19, 2004) Date:    Mon, Sep 20, 2004, 3:28am (EDT+4) X-Authenticated-Sender:    Hi Ronnie, So sad to hear about Baby. You must be sooo sad and distraught. However I want you to think possitive thoughts to send Baby to her final rest. She has been a wonderful friend and it is time to release her from her tired old body and just enjoy her spirit.She is still with you and will always be there for you but she had an old body that could not go on. You would not want her to go on in pain or discomfort and for her breed she lived a very long life. When we lost our cat Sweetie ( also a baby to us as was Nipper our golden lab mix and Coco our Chocolate lab mix)) I mourned but I also felt their spirits around me and still do. Celebrate the wonderful life you were able to share and stop feeling sorry for you. It is probably better for Baby where she is than to be a sad old dog who is sick. Please know I realize your pain but you must find joy in the fact that Baby was a gift to you and you will always have wonderful memories of the love she gave you. Pets are sure wonderful gifts from God ... but while we wish we could have them forever this is not reality and at some point we must wish them a peaceful and kind goodbye but know they are now spirits and will always live in our hearts. You gave Baby a life of love and you need to love yourself enough to let her rest in peace and at some point perhaps save the life of an animal who is destined for euthinisia. The loss of a pet is so traumatic but it IS part of life like loss of a parent. It sucks but it is reality. I wish you peace and hope you find comfort because she is still with you in spirit . Who knows maybe she will spur you on to save the life of another animal because when a pet is lost an "animal person" grieves and then needs to find another pet to help fill the void of the one who has gone to a peaceful rest. Wishing you love, peace and comfort in this tough time. Kendra

From:    "David Dunick" To:    "turtledovepond" Subject:    Fw: "Baby" (September 5. 1991 - September 19, 2004) Date:    Sun, Sep 19, 2004, 10:04pm Sun, 19 Sep 2004 22:04:30 -0400 Dear Raphael,  I am so sorry, she was beautiful and will be missed. The kids will always remember her fondly. I know she was a very special and one-of-a-kind part of your life. Our prayers will be with you.   Much Love, Janine

From: windhorse@adelphia.net Sent: Sunday, September 19, 2004 8:26 PM To: palmbeachshambhala@adelphia.net Subject: Re: "Baby" Ronnie, Our prayers of support for Baby and your love of your friend are expressed. Sometimes our love opens us to the grief experience that inevitably comes with the impermanance of all things including the objects of our affection. There is no other way then to trust in your own experience including vulnerability and grief. You don't have to struggle to get over it but can embrace your love and the open sadnes that comes with it. Be at peace with it .   Love to you. `Robert Scott From: "PalmBeachShambhala" Date: 2004/09/19 Sun AM 10:52:29 EDT To: "Brett Ferrigan" ,         "Robert Scott" ,         "Scott Miller"

From  "Sebastian Muccilli" Date:  Sun, Sep 19, 2004, 10:02pm Dear Ronnie, Your grief is significant indication of great love.  There is no other explanation for the overwhelming reaction to such a loss.  Somehow you will endure the pain because you will recall fond memories of the loyalty and devotion of your dear friend.  God notes your burden and that may not seem enough now but you will be rewarded for your care of and love for the precious companion who now graces the halls of heaven with barks of concern for you.  Sebastian

From: Sebastian Mendler To:    Turtledove Pond Subject: Baby Hi Ronnie -- My father has a Pomeranian as well, so I know you must have had a lot of fun with Baby. Recovery from this loss won't be easy, but with time it will happen -- you've got too much of the Light within you for the Darkness to hold you for long! / /skip Skip Mendler info: www.skipmendler.com         mime: www.serioussilliness.com stuff: www.cafeshops.com/smendler 1984+20 Project: www.1984plus20.org

From: Pianopeace1@aol.com Date: Sun, Sep 19, 2004, 8:11pm Subject:    Re: [pcpb] "Baby" (September 5. 1991 - September 19, 2004) Reply Dear Ronnie: I am so sorry for your loss. I remember meeting Baby at the Pax Christi Peace Vigil on Flagler Drive. As a fervent lover-of-dogs (mine is a Dachshund  named Lucy) I hope you'll find comfort in that wonderful saying,  (that I truly believe in): "All dogs go to heaven". May the memories of the good times you shared with baby keep you going during this very difficult, emotional time. Sincerely, Sandy

From: Psuebelk@aol.com Date:    Sun, Sep 19, 2004, 7:37pm Subject:    Re: "Baby" (September 5. 1991 - September 19, 2004) To:    turtledovepond@webtv.net I am so sorry for your loss.  I was worried that she would not recover due to her age.  I know that she was a source of joy for you, and I'm sure that she had a wonderful life.  You provided her with everything that a dog could ever want.  I don't know what to say to comfort you, except that I have been in the same situation 3 times.  As time goes by it will get a little easier, but you know that she is not suffering now.  My sweet little girl, Cinnamon, is buried on that property.  All of my babies were poms.  They are a very special and loving breed.  It may help to get a new puppy.  It will not replace her, but the new one would provide new memories for you. Love, Patti

From:    "sdubitsky" To:    "Turtledove Pond" Subject:    Re: "Baby" (September 5. 1991 - September 19, 2004) Date:    Sun, Sep 19, 2004, The whole in your heart will last a long time. There will never be another Baby. And there will be another companion for you to love because there are other companions who need to be loved and who need to love. I lost my beloved cat Barney last December. I still miss him. And I still have Barney's sister, Ginger, plus we adoped Cinderbella, a very sweet cat who's helping to fill the whole that Barney left. Time heals. Your purpose is to love and so you will love again. Sorah Dubitsky

From:    "Terri Conti" To:    turtledovepond@webtv.net Subject:    We love you Baby Date:    Sat, Sep 18, 2004, 10:35am 18 Sep 2004 Hey Ronnie, Any news on Baby??   She is beautiful.   I have a 14 year old Pomeranian and my heart goes out to you.   It is so hard to love an animal so much.   I wish certain people had shorter lifespans and some animals had longer ones... Thinking of you both this Saturday. TC

From: "Scott Miller" To:    "Turtledove Pond" Subject:    Re: "Baby" Date:    Tue, Sep 21, 2004, 3:33pm 21 Hi Ron, So sorry to hear of your loss. Try and remember the happy memories that will always be with you, and know that you will find each other again. Scott Miller

From: DANFLANDERS4@aol.com Date:    Sun, Sep 19, 2004, 7:09pm Subject:    Re: "Baby" (September 5. 1991 - September 19, 2004) To:    turtledovepond@webtv.net Dear Ronnie, My heart goes out to you. Please take comfort in knowing you have friends(although, I don't think we've met) that are praying for you and have you in their thoughts. I'm sorry for your grief ,but, also, have experienced it in my life. Time will ease the hurt and pain. You WILL make it and pull through this! I lift you up in my prayers. I wish you peace and comfort. Love, Robin Flanders

Date:    Wed, Sep 22, 2004, 12:26am To:    turtledovepond@webtv.net (Turtledove Pond) From:    Gene Kahn Subject:    Your companion Dear Ronnie. All my loving words and sympathy can never replace the life of your closest companion. I was away all weekend, at a kind of men's retreat camp I go to each year at this time. No email, and only emergency phone calls by cell. Just found out as we got home about 8:30 PM. You know of course that Betty died back in April, the country dog I adopted with Frank and I split up. She was hardly five. With help from David, we adopted a Dachshund puppy, Frieda. I care and love this dog so much, it troubles me at times. My weekend dog walker told me of a book called A PACK OF TWO, by Sharp, that deals with a women who also adopted a puppy, following some hard times in her life, and fell so in love with the dog, she too worried , "is this healthy?" The answer is that none of us can live a life without giving love to another. And with that comes always the risks, however heartbreaking they may be, of loss. Did you know that long ago, when I came home for a break from Bard College, mom was telling me about how Ginger had died. Then she admitted to me, with much conflict and difficulty, that she had cried when Ginger was gone, and had never cried when her own mother, our grandmother, had passed away. Some years back when Auggie died, a close friend said to me that with all the care and love I had given her, her spirit would now come back again in a higher Karmic plane through what I had given her. Through your own hurt and loss, still see all the good you have done for your own little friend. my love and sympathy. Gene. GeneandBetty2.jpg (jpeg attachment)

From: Nancy J Way Hello Ron..........blessings to you.........I am sorry to hear of your loss in your dear sweet Baby. I prayed for her in her smooth transition.   I send you Light and hope you can find some support there in a good grief counselor, or meditation group. I know how pets can be like our babies. I know you were very close to her. I remember how she would sing with you. She has given you many blessed times, as you gave her. Take good care of yourself now...........take a deeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep breath...a long walk..............trust yourself and what is right for you to allow yourself to feel it all and go through all the natural feelings and stages. You are not alone...................in spirit and higher realms I support you.......Nancy

From:    "Terri Conti" To:    turtledovepond@webtv.net Subject:    Sending a hug Date:    Wed, Sep 29, 2004, Hey Ronnie, Hope you fared okay during the last hurricane.   How are you?   I'm sure your hurt is still fresh and I send you much love and compassion. I'm sorry I wasn't able to talk to you on Saturday.   I've been crazy busy moving all my stuff into storage. Tomorrow I help my friend clean and completely move out of this place in Toms River, NJ.   Then Thursday I'm officially "on the road."   I may put off my trip south for a few days because I have a gig on Tuesday in NYC. Not much energy for interesting words tonite. I'm feeling tired and alienated as the rains of Jeanne pummel the roof of this Jersey beach house. If you haven't rented What Dreams May Come yet, you should. If you like movies, that is.   I love movies and books, and they both have helped me more than words can say.   Most of the action in this move takes place in the afterlife, and there's a beautiful scene of reunion with a dog.     I think consciousness is a miracle, and love is a miracle, and that your love for Baby is a miracle that helps to give birth to eternity. May you have the peace of knowing that you're remembered tonight. Love, Terri

Sun, Sep 26, 2004, 3:29pm (EDT-3) Subject:    Re: Want-Ad: Seeking Pomeranian From:    Erik Berglund To:    Raphael Hi Ron, Greetings! I've been out of town and just returned and am so sorry to learn about the passing of Baby. She was certainly one of the most special dogs I've gotten to meet. I don't think anything can take the pain or grief away. I went through it with my dear cat Prince. I almost didn't want to be here if I couldn't have Prince. What helped me was being in nature, especially around moving water. And then I had a reading with my friend Sharon Callahan (phone nr.:530-926-6424) who is an animal intuitive. Knowing where my friend had gone was helpful. Then after a time, a part of him was with me again and then I didn't miss him with such pain. Now I have a new cat called Shakti. Shakti can never be Prince, but she is wonderful in a whole other way and I love her too. I tried calling you but didn't get through hence this email. My music helped me too and I've heard that from many other people too. I've been going through a lot myself right now as my partner Scott whom I've been with for 11 years fell in love with someone else. It is possible he will still be in my life but things are still in change and transition. Dealing with the grief and loss of that has put me in touch with the same essence and experience I had with Prince's passing, my divorce, and original being adopted as a baby. It is the pain of separation which eventually goes back to being separate from God. When I feel the part of me that is still alive even after death, then it begins to move through. The other thing that has been the most helpful is to just breathe in my heart, just staying there, first thinking of things to be grateful for, even through tears, and then any time the mind wanders say the word now, and go back to the heart. For at least 15 minutes. Then walk in nature. When the heart breaks, it opens up in a new way to allow more of God in. By breathing there, it keeps it open allowing that healing to take place. I wish you the best. I've been there and am there again. I wouldn't want anyone to have to go through it. But I know in the end it creates growth and all things pass. Blessings to you! Erik

Susanna Doesn't Answer Susanna Doesn't Answer [to the tune of "Oh Susanna!"] --------------------------------- I cried out "Oh Susanna!" On the brink of despair, But Susanna Doesn't Answer Tellin' me she doesn't care. "O Susanna! Please call me on the phone! 'Cause I'm cryin' half my heart out here, And I'm cryin' all alone... My grief feels like a cancer ward, My pain's like an ancient curse. And Susanna Doesn't Answer. Lord! Makn it all feel ten times worse! "O Susanna! Please call me on the phone! 'Cause I'm cryin' half my heart out here, 'Cause I'm cryin' all alone... -------------------------------- music by Stephen Foster, words & arrangement (c) ronniekahn 2004 *****************************

Sun, Oct 10, 2004, 11:05pm (EDT-3) Subject:    Baby From:    Erik Berglund To: Raphael Hello Ron, I was just with Sharon Callahan, the animal intuitive that I spoke to you of. If you call her, she'll answer you right away. She confirms what I felt in that we both feel Baby's soul is coming back to you. She feels she is working on you on the inner very powerfully and needs to be there for a while. If you can wait, she may be coming back to you around Valentine's day. I have tomorrow to pack and do my final healings, and then I'm off to Europe. It is great to be connected with you again. Blessings, Erik